The Lord is gracious.

If we would stop trying so hard to get God to see us, instead, we should be doing our best to see God. That is when everything will become clearer - That's when everything becomes illuminated.

Exodus 33:18-19 New King James Version (NKJV)

18 And he said, “Please, show me Your glory.”

19 Then He said, “I will make all My goodness pass before you, and I will proclaim the name of the Lord before you. I will be gracious to whom I will be gracious, and I will have compassion on whom I will have compassion.”

The Lord is gracious. He will show you His glory.